Murky Waters

So the day to leave is fast approaching and I’ve only a few things left to pack before setting up the van to live in full time except I may not have to thanks to a friend who hadn’t realized just how bad things were until the other night.

I at the very least have a couch to sleep on and someone to talk to that is just a friend. She’s straight and has three kids, two cats, and a dog. Should prove interesting to add two cats and two ferrets into the mix.

Now don’t get me wrong I am extremely grateful for the roof and what may be a chaotic life but I have to wonder if the Universe isn’t testing me by offering a place that is “safe” when the reality is that I need to do the “hard” thing and get out on the road.

For the moment I am going to accept the safe option so that I can save some money and not have to worry where the fur kids and I will be sleeping after I get done working the second week in July. Then it is down to Kentucky to see a friend for the weekend and cross a couple of things off the bucket list and then back to my friend’s place for a bit to see where I want to do or go.

The fast moving water has slowed down but it is hard to see what is at the bottom due to the colors being all mixed up.

Jo

Full Spectrum: The Gauntlet

So in seven days I will be Home Free. Living in the van with two cats and two ferrets. Most of me is ready for this…at least I believe I am.

Emotions have run both high and low in the last few days. The lows are getting fewer but I am sure they will be back once I am actually in the van full time. Fear of the unknown has been the biggest low but then I remember that fear is just our mind’s way of keeping us safe from the darkness that might encompass us. I suppose it is the darkness that bothers me the most about this adventure still without darkness there can’t be light and that is what I have to focus on the light.Excitement, wonderment, happiness, joy all have been around as well and I am sure they will continue to cycle through.

I’ve been lucky with the amount of support I have received in my choosing to be Home Free. Even the few who think I should be finding a standard home are slowly coming around the reasons I am not looking for the standard at this moment. Even my dad who has been a rock is supporting me in this while his girlfriend isn’t so sure about it. Which if she had agreed to one of the few options I had I would be headed to Oklahoma instead of just the open road.

The almost non existent job had a bit of work for me so I will be getting a small check at the first of July and then I will have a week’s worth of work in July as well. That check will pay for another month of storage rent and some other items before I head to Kentucky to see a friend and cross at least one item off of my bucket list.

The strangest thing is this calm determination that has settled over me. Yes all the emotions are there but it is like they are starting to take a seat and getting ready to see where this takes us. Twenty or thirty years ago I’d be petrified about this but with the help of the internet I’ve learned things that will help me along the way and I’ve found a group of women on Face Book who do this as well. While most aren’t full time on the road there are a few and reading about their experiences is both reassuring and mind boggling. The list of resources they have is great.

Right now the biggest problem I am having is getting the last of the packing done between rain drops and the thunder boomers and well the help of one little ferret who keeps unpacking doesn’t help either.

 

Jo

Grey: The New Adventure

Things had been stagnant for sometime. The job is just in name only. I mean the only time I get paid is when I do a training video now and then for a few dollars. Mercury in retro grade did its job and now I have only days left at my place of residence but like the title says a new adventure is upon me.

The first good thing is that I now have a vehicle. A van to be exact so at the very least I will have a rolling home and lots of people are now living on the road why not me?

Two my dad, bless his soul, loaned me the money to buy the van and then some to keep me on my feet until I can get where I am suppose to go. I asked my friends on Face book where I should go and the response has been great.

The fear of things I once had has seemed to have evaporated into nothing. There is nothing for me to fear for the main fear has happened. To be tossed out with no job, no savings, no love, and at one point no vehicle.

I should be able to make a small living with my business if I can find my sewing machine and it still works otherwise it will suffer some until I can get one. Again the Universe stepped in there as well a friend who lives in another state has two machines and wants to give them to me.

Grey isn’t for clouds it is for the soft covering of the unknown.

My biggest worry at the moment is for my pets I know two of them will be great traveling companions it is the other two that I worry about adjusting to becoming nomads.

Obviously this blog has changed its intended purpose as I don’t think I will be looking to date while I find myself out on the road.

Jo