Full Spectrum: The Gauntlet

So in seven days I will be Home Free. Living in the van with two cats and two ferrets. Most of me is ready for this…at least I believe I am.

Emotions have run both high and low in the last few days. The lows are getting fewer but I am sure they will be back once I am actually in the van full time. Fear of the unknown has been the biggest low but then I remember that fear is just our mind’s way of keeping us safe from the darkness that might encompass us. I suppose it is the darkness that bothers me the most about this adventure still without darkness there can’t be light and that is what I have to focus on the light.Excitement, wonderment, happiness, joy all have been around as well and I am sure they will continue to cycle through.

I’ve been lucky with the amount of support I have received in my choosing to be Home Free. Even the few who think I should be finding a standard home are slowly coming around the reasons I am not looking for the standard at this moment. Even my dad who has been a rock is supporting me in this while his girlfriend isn’t so sure about it. Which if she had agreed to one of the few options I had I would be headed to Oklahoma instead of just the open road.

The almost non existent job had a bit of work for me so I will be getting a small check at the first of July and then I will have a week’s worth of work in July as well. That check will pay for another month of storage rent and some other items before I head to Kentucky to see a friend and cross at least one item off of my bucket list.

The strangest thing is this calm determination that has settled over me. Yes all the emotions are there but it is like they are starting to take a seat and getting ready to see where this takes us. Twenty or thirty years ago I’d be petrified about this but with the help of the internet I’ve learned things that will help me along the way and I’ve found a group of women on Face Book who do this as well. While most aren’t full time on the road there are a few and reading about their experiences is both reassuring and mind boggling. The list of resources they have is great.

Right now the biggest problem I am having is getting the last of the packing done between rain drops and the thunder boomers and well the help of one little ferret who keeps unpacking doesn’t help either.

 

Jo